Reflections

It has been 27 years now, a lot has happened in this short life spun. I have been anxious, hopeful and joyous at the same time. I am never worried because if it was meant to be it shall. Every year comes to us with certain realizations and resolutions.

As I registered out of university during my January 2018 semester, it sank in my head that I was soon kissing campus life goodbye. All the advantages associated with being on campus will be part of my history.

I didn’t imagine that after school I shall be required to fend for myself. It's a feeling that gives me sweaty palms even today because I am not just fending for myself but for my family and close friends.

Truth be told, campus life is sweet. There's a lot of free time at your disposal, accommodation is unbelievably affordable with a constant supply of free water and electricity. No one asks you about what you do all this time. It is up to you to do what is right. I used my time well for sure. I was focused on doing what sent me to school and I am glad I made it.

I didn’t imagine that after school I shall be required to fend for myself. It's a feeling that gives me sweaty palms even today because I am not just fending for myself but for my family and close friends. It feels like the first day I ever set foot in school, very scared and unsure.

I have learnt many lessons; I am still learning more I believe. There are times when things seem so hard, you wish you had not tried at all. What pains the most as a young person is seeing your peers having made it in life and it seems you were left behind. You had the same burning ambition to succeed, at times even though you worked harder than them, you were left out of the equation. That is the point you feel that life's unfair.

I am only human and at times I get jealous. I mean who wouldn't in such a scenario? However, in the few years that I have spent on this earth, I have learnt that nothing good comes without commitment, only self-pity and discouragement. The best I or you could do is wish everyone well and pocket some lessons that elevated them to the top. Learn and unlearn what is not helpful.

Every day I worry about the future. Will I get that job, drive that dream car or wear fancy designer clothes? Looking back at the previous chapters of my life, the phrase "nimetoka mbali" clearly applies. Back then, I still worried about the future which is now my present. Life can be funny. The most important lesson that I have learnt though is that if it was meant to be, it shall be.

Clearly, none of us knows what the future holds for them. There are two days in the year that you can absolutely do nothing about, yesterday and tomorrow. So this is what I will do with my today; I will pocket up like I have done, worry less, dream big, try and retry when I fail and smile even when things are tough. I know there's a better tomorrow; I know I will be favoured, victorious, celebrated and I will testify of my success.